This has been one of those days. On the good side, caught 2 more mice 4 more mice (2 after this posting, 1 in trap, other in rubbish. And sounds from kitchen lead me to believe there's still more loose). Those, + the one I caught over the weekend (took out in the trash) bring the total to 14. And none of them King Rat. And I deposited a cheque, an advance against a portion of work done, bringing my bank account up to 1/2 the amount needed for March's rent.
In theory I'm rich. I've done the math. Projects started, projected advances, completion dates, bills issued....It's a great living. But somehow the cheques aren't coming in, the advances are for far less than the agreed amount, and I hate discussing money so I grin and bear it, but it's gotta stop. Bills are due at the end of the week, with no forseeable way of paying. The rent cheque is due to bounce sky high any day. And like a moron I keep reassuring myself that it's not as bad as it seems, that in theory I'm rich.
It's soo bleak.
And there's the project, stalled now 6 months, waiting for materials from the client. There have been endless revisions in the interim, suggestions, rewrites, materials sent over for my inspection, always incomplete. It's become a nightmare. Up at 6:00 this morning, putting together the tables, files to be uploaded, to discover glaring omissions, missing linked tables, irrelevant information.
Banging my head on the computer, thinking that I'm a moron, that I must be missing something, but I'm not. Or I am a moron, but not for the reasons I was initially thinking....
Outside, the weather is beautiful. 10 degrees or more, the streets turning into glistening rivers, rinsing away memories of a cold winter.
I try to break up the frustration by surfing the net, but nothing cheers me, no news worth reading, nothing to inspire me at all. Probably it's not the web, it's me, the combined weight of stresses finally dragging me down, the cheerful "Here's the Database" with nothing in it that can be made serviceable. The further postponed cheques, awaiting clients gathering materials.
It's been one of those days....