I need something to look forward to.
There's the vacation, 12 weeks away, 3 weeks off the beginning of August, but after that, then what? If I don't get a move on it'll be back into the same pile of ...
I don't want to do another Christmas.
There's the weekend, well, Saturday garage sales and Sunday I can look forward to seeing the kids, but the expectations are so high, time is short, nothing gets done.
Lottery tickets, but they only raise one's hopes for 2 or three days before dashing them.
I've taken to online shopping, ordering crap from ebay and other online vendors, I don't need anything, but there's the anticipation of a present, a parcel, coming for me in the post...
Resumes, I should be putting them out, but there's the whole - "What to do if I get a job when I need my benefits and I want to go away in August...."
It's complicated.
Life in the present, it doesn't bear considering, it's all "work work work", and so I make time to set trivial goals, win the lottery, come up with my prime number theorum, my explanation for irrational numbers, even these things don't get done, the job, it has to go, it's the only thing I have to look forward to...