Out walking, a phone call from G***. We haven't yet caught up, talk a few minutes, make vague plans to get together with the Nephew. And while I'm talking I on the phone I can still feel it vibrating on my thigh, right where it was before I answered it, in my pocket, only my phone is in my hand. The Phantom vibration of a call, text message, or email, - when I have my phone, odd enough, but even when I don't have it with me, when I've left it home charging. For the very slight usage I get out of it there's been a significant rewiring of my brain, like a phantom limb...
Thought is everything, and I consider the targeted ads I get when I'm online - clearly they have an idea of who I am, my age and gender - ads for Tinnitus, for hearing aids, shingles, for attractive single older women - nothing that I'm in need of or am looking for, but forever planting the seed, the seed in your mind that grows to become the illness and when you're ready, when it's blossomed, they'll be there to sell you the cure...