5:00 AM and I have laid awake the past 2 hours, woken at 3:00 AM suddenly, awake, restless. No dreams that I can recall, but a sense of urgency, a missed connection, a premonition. I check my email, there is nothing, outside it's raining, cool, leaves turning to mulch on the lawn, the streets glisten...I've left the windows on the car open...
My premonitions are rare, but seldom wrong, I am more logic than instinct, but I heed the voice, it's a beautiful morning, a cigarette, one of many final cigarettes while I gather my thoughts.
And so I return to bed, wondering what compelled me to get up, trying again to fall asleep. I should know better, there is a reason for my waking even if I do not see it, and so I try to hide the little problem of my waking beneath the bigger problems, the big questions...
I muse upon the lies that create truth, symmetry, and other trifles, but none lead me to sleep. I wonder at the demons that have cropped up lately in my dreams, not being religious I wonder where they have come from... There was another demon recently, a short dream, a short demon, he merely entered the room, following somebody else but, I was busy, watching a mozza melt on a veggie burger I was making, waiting, it would be ready soon. I was hungry, the demon left.
Now, a pot of coffee and the day begins. There is work to be done, I need a shovel and rake, the compost needs to be placed outside and raked into the garden, twigs need to be gathered, websites built... there is work to be done.